Why even bother?


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Looking back at the younger years, the usual was having to think real hard about things to say at confession. Now, having unapologetically rejected the afterlife, in firm disbelief of deities and supernatural follies, I wouldn’t need long to recall, for example, the many harms I have wished upon seekers and havers of power, upon those who can afford greed, abusers and the hungry tools who idolize their authority. The things I would condone, the fates laughed at contemptuously, the so many other ways or directions in which I eh … might look… And I suppose I could confess some of those if recounting them would not fill me with such delightful and intense joy as to fervently want them seen reenacted or accomplished.

Not to mention no will to refrain from pursuing or engaging in them any further. No recognition of guilt or acknowledgement of it as being reprehensible behaviour of some kind or another: they’re just thoughts. I’m being honest about what I want here. You know how it goes about people and the things they want, right? Oh dear, curses so sweet to behold, as succulent as any dish, more satisfying than any pleasure the flesh could covet, of the taste to extinguish any and all other desires.
And these aren’t even the things I’d do to them myself if ever given half the chance… but, let us not get into that for now.

Anyway, sometimes it’s just up to the timing, line things up correctly, at just the right price… and…
Bah, after all, what do I know I’m just an old fool, a poor old fool who hasn’t even managed to sell one single damn money shitting magic unicorn in almost a decade. Nothing to see here.

Badly Drawn Animals #41


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This one has been ready for a couple of weeks already, but I’ve been wanting to post two of them at once again. The last details of the next one however are proving quite tedious, so I’ve gone back to paper drawings and earlier drafts of different eh… specimens. After the initial digital phase things tend to get to be more of a grind, my next bout of motivation for that kind of thing should end me up with several more entries to the gallery.

In the meantime, I might roll back the next one I was intending to post here to a previous, simpler variation on the drawing, but more likely that I won’t though. Rather, I’ll just move its number down the list. #41 was going to have more colours, I had altered it to be balanced around 3 colours, but waiting and staring at it a lot I went for the lighter design instead. Read more details on that below the thumbnail, which you can click on for the full image, which is also up on the gallery page.

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New Badly Drawn Animals And More On The Way


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Felt like making a much longer blog entry than this, but whenever it comes times to commit to typing anything … well, right now anyway, thinking about it there isn’t anything I want to get into. Posting this mainly because of the new Badly Drawn Animals. Continue reading

Beautifully Designed Animals #38


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The shapes in the base image used in this one were coloured using this pattern:

At least one black filled area borders each not-black filled area.
In the same way, all not-red shapes are next to a red one.
And similarly for the ones not coloured green.

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bda #36 has an animated version, so it’s also a bda


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Not planning on posting another playlist again this month. Haven’t listened to that many shows at all. All caught up on a few though so I might get one out before the second half of next month. I haven’t been feeling all that great otherwise I have several new items for the bleedleaf digital art section of the website. Keeping up with the guitar practice has been hard enough, but it’s like I said in the previous post except I’ve been getting in a lot more in the few recent days. Might try recording the setlist for a day or two between here and the end of next week. Spent part of the day cleaning the guitar up, the keys needed fixing, and I should have new strings on it tomorrow at some point.

In a couple weeks then, late October at most, I should have a post about my media playlist since August, hopefully over half a dozen new bda and at least a few, plus a decent recording or two with the tuned up guitar. In the meantime, #36, the next instalment in the badly designed animals series of beautifully drawn art is already ready. So much so, it’s going to be an entry in the bleedleaf digital animations category also (ahead of #23, which I’m not sure will ever get done at this point):

another August blog post


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Not going to make a playlist for this month. I hardly listened to or kept up with anything since that first week so it wouldn’t be much of a list anyway. And even though I’ve been pondering about writing something longer for the blog here all week, there’s nothing specific I’d really want to elaborate on right now. Did a lot of cleaning up around the apartment, in the mailboxes and stuff.

Another one of these months, not much else to mention about it. No progress on any BDA and only a handful of new drawings on paper. That page is worth a look at if you haven’t in a while.

Updated the classical guitar page a little, to reflect the different things I’ve been practicing recently. Slowed down a lot on that front. It’s been pretty much limited to the first few titles on most days, compared to the full days of playing and practicing I was often doing at the beginning of the month.

Not much of a post, but I didn’t want to end up with posting nothing at all for another month again. I’ll leave this open for now, but that’s probably it, and will click that publish button before I shut this off for today (<that was 3 days ago :P ). Maybe I’ll be more chatty next month.

Léonard is doing ok, but like me seems to be dreadfully under-stimulated. Sits at my feet or jumps on my lap when I’m sitting much more often, which is fun, but he’s been meowing way more often recently and sometimes loudly, which isn’t. He goes out even less than I do.